Saturday, June 18, 2011

ill just write for now...

SO.  we live in 'affordable housing' if you will and we love it! There are a few things that one could say is an absolute must that we do not have. I say they are comforts, not necessities. Lately, I believe, God is relentless at killing my idol of comfort. Boyyyy do I loooove my comforts. Comfort foods, comfy clothes, no teething baby at 6 months old, more than one closet for an entire apartment (including clothes) yep we have no bedroom closet.... and the list could go on for a mile.
This morning I realized that I actually have a manual of this idol. It came to me as I threw another temper tantrum. This was a good one.. reality TV worthy. I would have been bleeped out for a good 30 seconds as I chucked a paper towel across the kitchen. *which landed in the sink, btw.. score!* Seriously though if I did have my own reality show, it wouldn't last more than an hour before breaking the camera persons arm shouting' turn that bleeping thing OFF '
anyway, coming back from the rabbit trail, i pray for patience ALL THE TIME. With my husband, with dear Oliver, with the free internet here that kicks me off every 2 minutes, and i think to myself.. once life slows down and our finances start looking up...then my attitude will change.... baaahaaahaaaa.. welcome to 90 % of AMERICA Jenny!!!!!
well, I feel better now, i think. Because in the midst of this chaos I have a Constant. The Holy Spirit does not cease to bring gentle reminders of his love and grace and sufficiency. That yes, I do not have it all together, or at times anything together ( i feel ) .. but God, the Creator, most Powerful... calls me by name and I am his beloved???? WHAAAAAA???????

amen, thank you Jesus.

oh and for Father's Day Ryan is getting a haircut at Del's Barber Shop .. that's how we roll.
He was stoked about it!
love my simple husband, what a treasure.


Sunday, June 5, 2011

online journaling to the masses

Ok, so i guess ill give the usual disclaimer for not blogging now....

{gee wiz my life is so crazy// do you know what ive been thru//ill make it up to 'you' i promise..blah blah}

phew, glad that is over now onto my title.
i have a few questions...
dont you blogger maniacs ever feel weird about journaling to the public? or do you love it? why and why?

So, i was in bed after being a royal bitch to my husband tonite and i could not fall asleep.. thinking about my actions and how socially awkward i am now that im a newlywed.

which brings me to my other question: did or do you other marrieds ::newlywed or not::  ever go thru a time where you didnt know where you really fit in socially?
I mean i could have a million and one play dates with my females friends past and present, but when it comes to the hubby and me together, it appears as if we are invited to the 'everyone is invited' but not the other nites, catch my drift?
maybe cuz it does take effort for my hubby to be social and sometimes it is hard for him in social settings...
maybe cuz ive been a bitch , a critical one at that, one too many times???
maybe cuz our new life as a family really has been crazy and we simply have stopped pursuing others and are way out of touch with our amazing community?

anyway, i really never thought i would be the one going to a blog to 'journal' , if you will... but i need to sleep... my dear son Oliver will be up in roughly 6 hours and i am an 8 hour kinda gal, and it would be nice to share what is going on with my new lil family.. perhaps make some new//see some oldie friends along the way and to say at the end of the day and the final day.....

Jesus has overcome....



ps. yes, I am still a God-fearing, Jesus worshipping Christian even thought i did say the bee word, still love me? thought so : )